My current job is going great. I’m overwhelming myself. It’s important to remind myself that no one is overwhelming me.

The fact that I have a ton of projects that all hinge on me is a good thing, so long as folks aren’t jumping down my throat about deadlines. All I am hearing is positive feedback.

Trying my best right now is threefold; first is counterintuitive: take breaks and don’t burn yourself out. Lean on your coping mechanisms to get through the stress and ruminitive nature of a huge workload. Second, it’s communicating: update the teams that are relying on me if my suggested delivery time has moved. Third, it’s reminding myself that no one is upset with me and my performance.

I set up some of my music gear again tonight. Haven’t touched it in like 5 months, had fun. Then I got on my PC and worked on some electronic music using none of the previously mentioned gear, LOL (which I also haven’t done in a while).

just trying tbh, just reading ton of shit when AI is going to make all of that obsolete. soon I will have no job, no family and I will be fucking broke. ( I hope it doesn’t happen but It has high chances of happening ).

I wonder if I can live my life on charity